wanderlust … struggling with being all there

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gapyear, nderlust, travelabroad

week (1) I  needed this trip – front  row seat on Mt. Killi, new language, new commitments, new patients, new projects

week (5) why so different ? dusty roads, culture shock, good food, adventures.
I just want to watch Netflix plus growler night with my snuggle bear.

Week (9) still missing everything!!!  is the universe telling me something. But, i
wanted this wanderlust experience … too many “if” and “but” hanging over my head. Universe, please pick a day in the calendar … I need a break

 

week (what next ?) will  the white sand and blue waters of the Indian ocean teach me how to be all there again? what if the ocean breeze and magnificent waves give me the courage too sail forward … time to pack for a new destination

where ever you are be all there Mannie
just for today “Try” 

a celebration of life : trumpets

On acknowledging my angel, another year in heaven… for all the beautiful moments shared in the physical  world and the vivid memories in our hearts.
And for bringing your name sake along

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love triumphs all even death

Unexpected but Necessary …. Who knows ?

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Change, dreams, scared, unknown

Sometimes  our dearest wish manifest itself in the most unexpected way. So we panic, we flap our wings and batt our lashes.

It’s happening. But, I didn’t plan it this way…

Into each life some rain must fall – Henry Wadsworth

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appriciation, deserving, fear, future, peace, power, rightnow

Are we always on a quest to find meaning to any sensation of fear or pain that we experience ? What exactly am I after ?

I live with a sometimes disabling anxiety. I occasionally drive my myself crazy over nothing; caught-up worrying about the future. Questioning every minute of how deserving i am of the present and feeling a little scared to fully enjoy what is right here – busy preparing myself for when it will be snatched away like every other thing [how crazy ? What an infertile way of thinking? I spin my wheels]

I need to focus on right now. Darn it! If tomorrow is ruthless. Into each life some rain must fall. I have no control over tomorrow but i have the power to feel appreciative and deserving of all that is happening right now.

The truth is: I have a long journey ahead and a lot of years to live; Mannie tomorrow will take care of itself – just like every other day.

Peace be still.

What is it about January ?

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editting, getting by, january, newyear, no resolution

I don’t get it. I don’t even make resolution in January because my new year often kicks in weeks after the change of date.

What is it about January that makes me feel like a troubled child …. Arggggh

For every emotion, combat with an affirmation – says Me!

I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be productive, and to make sense and order out of the world of people and things outside of me…I own me and therefore I can engineer me…I am me

And

it is the year 2015